Today is my Monday.
More importantly, today is my last Monday with a safety net.
Let me explain.
I’ve been candid about my professional journey here. I’ve talked about my failures (often), and my biggest fear. My journey has been a twisted one, but no matter what, I’ve always had a safety net. For the majority of the past four years, I’ve had regular full-time clients to make me feel safe. I knew that every week, I was getting a paycheck to my bank account without having to stress about when my other clients’ checks would make it to my mailbox.
I’ve been working hard on building my business, but I haven’t entirely leaped. I’ve been a full-time freelancer, and I’ve been calling myself a solopreneur.
No, having full-time clients probably didn’t make me any less of an entrepreneur, but it’s held me back.
There’s nothing wrong with having a safety net until that safety net makes you feel complacent.
Here’s the part where I set fire to that safety net.
March 7, 2017, will be my last day with a full-time client. On March 8, 2017, I will only have my business (finally incorporated), a couple of clients, and an incredibly scary “unknown” staring me in the face.
Even writing that I’m shaking. I know this is absolutely the right decision for me and my future, but it also feels like the most reckless decision.
The thing is that while the experience I’ve gained during my work with Fluke, Google, and AT&T over the past few years has been invaluable, I always wonder about the opportunities I’ve missed because of those full-time commitments.
Maybe none.
Perhaps, that’s the best it’s going to be, and this is as big as my business gets. Maybe by the end of April, I’ll be reaching out to my recruiters, begging them to find me a full-time contract.
It’s possible that will be the outcome. I’ll figure out the lessons from the failure, get back on my feet, and write another “I’m leaping again” post in June.
I’ve always lived my life one big leap at a time.
I go after my passions. I dream too big.
I can’t sit still because there’s always more to do, more to experience. When it comes to business, there are so many stories waiting to be told.
I want to Amplify as many voices as possible.
This is the way Amplify Your Biz LLC came to life in the first place.
Who am I to hold myself back?
This all began in the back of a D.C. taxi, after being fired for the first time, and realizing my dreams were bigger than my fears.
When I started this journey, I was in an insane amount of debt, my personal life was shaky at best, and I was still feeling inferior because I hadn’t finished my degree.
But that brave girl leaped. She knew what she wanted, and she failed and failed again – but learned so much along the way.
How can I betray my journey and progress?
So, this is for that girl who dreamed too big failed even bigger, but kept going anyway.
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